Fufuuuu. Been going through some older arts to see what is/isn’t portfolio worthy (a surprising amount is NOT, which makes me sniffle a little), and came across some old progress pics for a piece I did for a good friend of mine. For various reasons I never did get to give it to them. I hope to some day, but for now, well………”Life’s a Long Song.” *dodges bricks*

It makes me wonder about fear. How much it holds us back from doing/saying/attaining the things we want in life. If I hadn’t been so scared to do it just then, I could’ve given this to the person and be done with it; but now, I’m stuck with this thing, a constant reminder of how spineless I can be (*lol*) and who the hell knows what’s coming tomorrow-good or bad. :P

I mean, what’s the worst that could’ve happened? They could have spit on it and ripped it up right on the spot. I’m sure that would pall in comparison to what I feel right now. *LOL*

I guess it just goes to show that 1.) you ‘gotta grab the moose by the balls,’ and 2.) you shouldn’t let anything stop you from doing what you set out to do.

Yeah. I don’t know if I want to show the finished version or not (I have issues HEE HEE). I’ll at least show more progress when I find them…its kind of a rare like-able pic for me. :3

Over the past year, there’s been a ton of things/projects/etc that I’ve wanted to do/get started on. But when I would look at them all, I would get discouraged, give myself time to question all the why’s and how’s, and eventually, I never really did too much of anything (except for angsting about not doing anything).

Over the past few months, I’ve taken the advice of an old friend and ’stopped thinking and just did it.’ Gave myself no time to question my actions; just shut up and got to work. Not revolutionary advice by any means, but REALLY DAMN EFFECTIVE~!!

Lately, these simple sketches are a part of that “just do it” process (for me). I draw a bunch for other people and since it takes a large part of my thought/emotional processes, I easily get drained and unbalanced. Simple sketches help me by ways of finding my center; some people meditate. I draw. :P

That great big list of things I posted earlier is slowly getting whittled down (good lord, I think country living is rubbing off on me *LOL*) because I didn’t give myself an excuse to think of other things to do otherwise. I just did it.

For me, at least, that motivation is infectious. I can’t stay lazy when I’m doing *something,* and something is better than nothing (usually)~!!!!

Of course, I’m not perfect with it….but it helps me out. :)

And of course, there are sometimes and something that keep me from being able to do things. :3

Just something extremely quick (like less than 10min) while watching Grey’s (OMG its been SOOOOOO good).

I had originally had something much different planned to post here today (perhaps tomorrow?), but while watching, they brought up something that I have been dealing with quite a bunch recently. Pretty much, the point was, ‘Having People, is better than NOT having People.’

It is just my own silly belief, but I agree with that a million percent~!!!! :)

If that makes me the “Stray Dog” that I was called so many years ago, then so be it. I will be proud of that.

If you can, take a minute and think about your People. Let them know you care. It makes a world of difference. Trust me. :)

Just something quick, because…well…..just because. :/

Playing around with my RoseMarie a little. She’s a lot of fun to draw, especially when I’ve got a bunch going on upstairs and can’t sort it out.

Y’know, I’m not a great leader or speaker or anything…I only seem to be good at (and even that is questionable sometimes) putting lines on paper. I find great joy and fulfillment (however much it makes me want to run and hide and deny it) when people tell me that they “feel” something from my scribbles, or that they’re made to “want” to draw/create/be motivated after seeing my works. If I can make just one positive change, its a reason for me to keep going until the end. :)

Woah. Long time no see. :P

The past month and a half has been a big bear. One thing after another, after another, after another decided to rear it’s head, and it doesn’t look like it’ll stop anytime soon, unfortunately. All of that has even affected my professional workings too, which is BAAAD~!

Little by little, I’ve been trying to put my mangled schedule back together, so with any luck (rather, with a lot of hard work on my part), I’ll be back to normal soon. :)

I had to go and get a new sketchbook the other day; I put my other one, “Salvation,” aside for various emotional (ie: lame) reasons. I’m the type of dork that names them (mostly so that I can keep track), and this one has been called “Penitence,” because I’ve been feeling lately that I’ve got a LOT of that (penance) left to do. :/

Here’s the first page from it:

Most of that was done under the influence of the medicine I have to take to make my stomach reasonably calm (they make me very….er….sleepy and strange).

I don’t know. For the past few years, I’ve developed the very silly notion that a sketchbook needs to be as pristine, structured, and “finished” as a portfolio. This is SO not so. Personally, falling into that type of thinking really puts a damper on my productivity. As in, I have no freedom do just do whatever, whenever. I know others who are stuck in that frame of mind, too, and if you read this; STOP. :) Just draw, and screw what everyone else thinks.

Let out whatever randomness that comes to you. :3

A small favor for thouse of you who might read a little bit *too* much into this post/sketch: Please don’t. *hug*

Random: I recently cut off most of my hair (I actually might get it cut a little more), and its SUCH an odd feeling to have it brush the back of my neck. Feels like something is crawling on me. Hee hee. Its itchy when I draw~!

Until next time, I’m off to chill with some good tunes and let the rain wash away the sorrow. Woooo.