“内面の欠点は必ず表に現れる。”

A whiteboard doodle (plus jpn phrases both in pic and post) so I don’t forget an idea I had. Please forgive my atrocious handwriting and grammar. :3~~ (Its really bad~!!!)

“愛するがゆえに言葉にできないこともあるし、言わぬが花ということもあります So please forgive me.”

Edit: Having a hell of a time breathing; don’t know if I’m catching a cold, have allergies, or dying (kidding~!!!). *LOL* Either way, need to wait for the Benadryl to kick in, so here’s a very quick concept of “Girl,” from above (got cut off from other sketches on the page).

And some quick tweaks (from yesterday) of my very first real ori-chara, Pan. She’s always going through changes in design/personality. Hee hee. She’s a lot of fun to play with, however much she’s extremely generic~!

Will return in late May, so until then, my dearests. :) Be well.

Earlier today I went for a long drive out in the country to clear my head. It was nice. And quiet. It helps.

Out there, something triggered my memory, and I thought of something some friends tease me about occasionally; about how when I draw for myself, I usually only draw sad/angsty girls. TT3TT I never really thought anything of it–its just something that naturally comes out of me, though I consider myself neither sad or angsty.

Any case, I draw girls’ comics, and the previous thought got me going. Do I really have any place writing stories about love and relationships and like things when the only experience I have with it is highly screwed up/unhealthy, abnormal, and/or unrequited? How can I write well rounded characters and believable situations when I’ve no idea what a good situation is? *lol* And then, thinking back, any comic story I’ve written has been horribly tragic/screwed up in some form or another. :P

I’ve heard many others say they’ve had to ditch certain ideas/characters because they “couldn’t get into their (the character’s) head.” Perhaps this is just the same?

But then again, its not like I can go out and “do research.” *LOL* And its not like “love,” whatever that means, is without many many troubles. TT^TT

My personal preference is for stories with lots of unhealthy, tragic events anyways. BWAHAHA~!!! I guess I’m well suited to it. <3

I haven’t done much gesture drawing in a very long time; and you can really tell. :/ At the end of my drive today, I parked by the local wildlife preserve (I like it there a lot) and (literally) scribbled a few people I saw. I also like going down to the preserve to watch the kayak-ers (who tend to be pretty damn hot). Hee hee.

Also planning to get another tattoo sometime soon. Playing around with the ‘magic faithe star’ idea a bit. Buubuu.

I SWEAR this has been the longest month EVER. Not. Cool.
I guess that’s why the saying doesn’t go ‘time flies when you’re absolutely miserable.’ *LOL* (/exaggeration)

Just one very quickly sketch (Hmm, I wish there was a Quickly near me. I’ve been wanting boba-tea lately). A warm up because its freakin’ FREEEEEZING in my little country house right now (*glares at the clogged fireplace*). And a reminder to refine this idea at a later time.

With one exception, it takes tons more to get this little piggy down. So “No worries. Its all good.” XD Fait-O~!!!!!!
….or so I tell myself. :P

Hmmm. Massive thunderstorm woke me up; haven’t been able to fall back to sleep. :/

Found a couple more process pics.

and…

Will have something new-ish to post tomorrow. :3 Now….is *try* to get back to sleep. Hmmm, still raining.

Wow. Its April already. The year is a quarter done. Seems like just last week we were all sending out the Happy New Years and Best Wishes texts and mails. :P

So far, this year for me has had a lot of twists, turns, and ridiculous surprises (such is my life). But I’ve been able to make great strides to a “New Future.” :) During the past three weeks or so, I’ve been more productive than I have in the past three months. In the past three months, I’ve been more productive than I have in the past three years~!

Days like today, though, are very challenging. Days like today my faith in the world around me seems to be at it’s lowest; and this is bad. Days like today, I lack the energy to even get up, let alone work on comic pages, illustrations I need to get done, yard work, “real” work, or whatever. Its days like today that make me want to curl up and continue letting “life” have it’s way with me.

I made a promise, though. So despite the screaming protests of my body and mind, I got up. :)

Though, today I only have one thing to show. A “rejected self-portrait” type thing. I may or may not still use it, depending….

Sometimes I scribble song lyrics and things while I sketch if I think it might lead to ideas for future illustrations. Not sure what this song was (don’t feel like google-ing it), as it was part of a DJ mix set.
“If you only knew,
just how much the sun needs you.
To help it light the sky,
You would be surprised…”

I miss having long hair. TT^TT